If you've never been homeless, it's tough to describe that first night sleeping on the street. The fear and disillusionment are almost paralyzing. You just go through the motions, but at the same time you're beating yourself up for being in this situation. It is very surreal because no one ever thinks they will become homeless. No one. I'll never forget my first night. All of a sudden and without warning, I found myself homeless. I was sober, but I had no money, no place to go and no one I could call for help. I was officially homeless.